December 28 2014
I let go of a lot of things and I try my hardest not let the things of this world rule me or control me. I see father my many humanly downfalls but I try hard to not let them get the best of me. I wish to be a soldier for God but I feel like I have challenged myself by having connections to this world versus just being one individual connected to God.
Every day is a struggle to make sense of things, be one with God and to love like he does. God ask that we be fruitful and multiply and then I read the words spoken by Paul, who rightfully speaks on matters of love and being equally yoked or how it is better to marry than to burn. Ironically this statement is spoken to man as to encourage marriage but what people do not explain is how this section is under a stipulation or condition regarding lack of self-control. We do not have to marry if we have the ability to have self-control.
If we are unable to control our fleshly urges and cannot subdue the desires for connections and all other things that are momentary, what need is there for marriage. What is marriage but a union that focuses on the needs of another, can we truly love others without being torn. Nearly every day I question God about love and every day I am reminded, God loves us regardless of how we treat him, disregard him, disobey, ignore and/or disrespect him; he still provides us opportunity to come to him and remains here for us.
He loves us despite ourselves, despite how we completely just operate blindly thinking we know what we’re doing but really we know absolutely nothing. We have everything at our fingertips, constantly striving to have more and more, searching for answers about the Earth, space and everything else. Constantly naming and labeling things, moment, and times, yet in still God says there is nothing new under the sun. If this so then what really are we working for or towards better yet, who are we working for; the creator or the damner? We are so distracted, so concerned, so worried, so lost and chasing our tails we miss what could be just so simple.
I can understand why God gets mad at us and then punishes us, yet ironically we think why would this happen…? Consider Sodom and Gomorrah, was it not for Abraham negotiating for the righteous all those in the city would have been destroyed. Just as God doesn’t separate sin as greater or lesser he justly punishes all evenly by/for the sake of one, just as by the sacrifice of one God saves(d), all. We question God as he tests our faith, but what right do we have to question God’s reasoning that which far exceeds our own comprehension. He provided us with a handbook on life, a guideline on what to do and what not to do, a historical collection to reference his great works and what happened as a result of disobedience. The biggest irony of all that we do in this world, with all the knowledge we have and all the idiocy we still ask what are we doing wrong or why is the world the way it is, yet we keep making the same mistake(s)… nothing new under the sun. Am I my brother’s keeper?
Even in our own lives we questions why things keep happening yet we keep doing the same things over and over again then getting mad at God, others or whatever, completely missing the lesson every time. We define insanity as being doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result, does this exact statement not define the whole world yet ironically we complain and normalize the unstable, continuous insanity.
Though I cannot speak of all religions or any specific sec of spiritual faith, what I can do, however, is question those who have opinions on matters they refuse to seek to even understand. Such as those who state they love God yet don’t seek after him (read his words), to know him, to respect him, obey him, pray to him, praise him, or actually show any signs of loving him. So many people say these things but we do the minimum to show two even care. We do more for the love of others then we do for the love of God, seek after so much here in the world, yet we complain and blame God for our shortcomings as though he’s responsible for the choice we make on our own. How? Do we not deserve some punishment, do we not see the millennium upon millennium of disrespect, dishonor, lies, and everything we do against God yet we complain for the moment of what we lose that was actually just borrowed in the first place, when we plead for things and then when we get then we forget the promises we made, we seek after things we don’t deserve and then complain as though we earned it.
What appreciation do we show God and yet still he lets us back in forgiven! Saved by his grace, did we really deserve it? All God ever truly asked is for us to love and respect him, follow a view rules that shouldn’t feel like rules at all because they are needed. If we really think about it all works to makes sure everyone is happy and taken care of equally yet we still can’t get it right. People ask, what is the meaning of life? Let’s find out… rather we believe in God or not, if the entire world followed the Ten Commandments without faltering at all, what do you think will happen? If we are able to take that further and follow what God says about love, down to a T, without any errors as a mass, what then would happen? And then if we take it even further and actually seek and search to understand and love God like we do when we love and want to work things out with others… and accept him as a whole, what then will happen?
Are we not responsible for ourselves? Up to a certain age we are completely responsible for our children because at some point they must begin to seek to understand things outside themselves versus just seeking to be loved. Though God has his chosen few to whom he’s opened their eyes to see the world for what it is, to live above the world and not of the world, not blaming but repenting, not begging but earning, not asking and expecting but actually seeking and getting. Things are so simple yet we as humans become so caught up with ourselves that we miss what is simple by complicating things.
So much can be said on the matter of God and Humanity, but what good is this if we are blind to our own shame most of the time and if man is too prideful to even see that they have nothing. Man truly feels entitled when they have earned nothing, or even demand everything but don’t give enough to receive a thing. Who are we to make claim to anything, we don’t even belong to ourselves? Freedom is an illusion and always will be for those who truly don’t know the power of its true will. We are owned by this world and yet claim the illusion of collecting as a right to through freedom. Do we not realize we are slaves to this world, to each other, to love, to even ourselves? We are our greatest downfall because we seek after the now, the tangible but not after what is truly which isn’t tangible at all, it is in the power of letting go, trusting, and letting God that we truly become free.